Smile

3 months. Baby boy is 3 months old already.It seems like an eternity has passed since the day he was born.A 3 months old baby is so different from a newborn. I am 25 now and I will not change much in the next 3 months. I will turn 26, but I will not grow bigger or heavier (unless I stuff myself with junk food everyday starting from today). My hair and my nails would grow, but that would be it.
But in 3 months, my baby boy changed completly. His face when he was a newborn is nothing compare to his face now. Then, his face was puffier and he did not have eye- brows. His body parts were smaller as well. Now he is heavier and stronger. He can hold his neck without any help, and can grab anything that is near him. He is laughing and "talking" also. When he is hungry or wants a diaper change, he lets you know. He even knows how to do it loud enough to grab your attention. Moreover he is capable of waking you up in the middle of the night with his loud coos.At 3 months, it is such a joy to play with him, because he is more receptive and alert. He can see colors and is curious of his surroundings. He particularly loves big green trees maybe because they are so high up in the sky.
He also laughs all the time.I remember how at 6 weeks, I fussed because he did not smile. I was coaxing him into smiling by making weird faces and noises. But he did not bulge. Then the miracle happened while I was shaking my big fat ass in a stupid dance in order to entertain him. It was brief. I did not even have the time to express my surprise that it was gone in a flash (the smile that is). I was happy and disappointed at the same time. I confide my frustration to my husband who told me:" our boy is not like the other babies who as expected, smile at 6 weeks. He is special, so he will smile at his own time or not smile at all". I could understand the "he will smile at his own time" part but could not quite gulp the "will not smile at all" part. The reason laid in he fact that I read in a magazine that if babies do not smile at all, it could be a sign of autism. So you could assume that I was scared my boy could show early signs of autism although the disease can only be diagnosed when a child is 2 years old.Thankfully, Babyboy smiled at his own time and without coaxing. Now he smiles all the time, when we talk to him, when he sees something interesting around him and even in his sleep.
But the best smile he gave me happened in such an unusual way. One night, after what seemed to be an eternity or rocking him, he finally fell asleep. I was ready to sleep as well. I lay down on the bed and closed my eyes. I barely slept 10 minutes (I may have slept more but I was so tired it felt shorter)that I hear him moving in his crib-which is next to my bed-. He opened his eyes and raised his head to look at me. I was furious but then he smiled in such an angelic way, my heart melted as my anger faded away. I then took him in my arms and while kissing him, I hold him tight. It was one of the happiest moment of motherhood so far.