Hurricanes

"Just leave me alone!" I feel like screaming few times a day. I live in a household with three other males: my husband and my two boys. Sometimes I feel like a second class citizen. My needs and wants always come the last. All of my energy centers around these three. I take care of them in the best way I can but it is very hard to divide myself in three. They are so demanding and they do not even realize it. My husband is still alright, because he is an adult and can take care of himself. However, sometimes he craves my attention like any spouse would do.
I feel like all three of them are like hurricanes, ready to turn my world upside down every morning and every night. It starts from the moment they wake up. I have to bath them, feed them, prepare them for school. And when they come back from school (and work), I have to start over again (feed them, bathe them and get them ready for bed). I can snatch a few me time when I stay at home with the baby. When he naps, or plays I get to enjoy some Internet browsing or just plain TV. The best alone time I get is in the middle of the night when I am awake because I am too anxious to sleep (do not ask me why?). I turn on the TV and watch rerun cop shows. Or just read a book (on my bedside right now is Game Change. Truly fascinating!). At those times I get to breathe and be myself and not the wife and mother of two.
They say that once you dread your husband coming back home from work, the marriage is over or in big trouble. I dread having my husband coming back from work, because it means no more quiet and peaceful time for me. It means he and my second son (from daycare) will rush inside the house and demands all kind of things from me, from water, to snacks, to diner, to change the TV and conversation about my day...As soon as they enter the door, it is like I cannot breathe anymore. I want to scream:" Just go back to where you are from!". Is it bad that I feel this way about them? Am I too selfish?
My best friend always tells me that she is envious of what I have: a family. And I always tell her that I am envious of what she is: single. I had so much me time when I was single. I could go out on a limp and do things I care about without having to report to anybody or worry about finding a baby sitter. It was fun. But come to think of it: I hated being single. I always had boyfriends because I hated being alone. I enjoyed me time but too much of it and I did not know what to do with myself. That is why I got married early and that is why I had children early.
To sum it up, like everyone else, I hate hurricanes for turning our lives upside down. But sometimes, they can be a blessing in disguise because my hurricanes turn my life upside down for the better: I am better human being, a better wife and mother, a better cook (lately I even impressed myself)...So go on and mess with my life! Just leave me with enough power to mess with yours back.